on the edge of another panic attack, fuck, it's not even 9 am yet. I feel like today is gonna be a pain in the ass, i've already had 2 critiques and I still have 2 to go. I wish there was a way to get this tight little ball of gravity and tension out of me. It's so hard to be productive when I feel like this, having sever social anxiety makes studios a huge waste of time for me anyway, I always just end up sitting here trying not to freak out waiting to go home and actually get work done. Then of course there's this other thing that is just totally fucking up my head right now and I can't really talk to anyone about it or even figure out where I stand with. honestly its getting exhausting. fucking emotions. sometimes I wish there was a way to just make them do exactly what you wanted or turn them off or ignore them at least.